Eighteen

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

10:21 PM

My dearest Popol,

I just finished doing my daily devotion. The topic was to forgive and forget, and was taken from the life of Joseph the dreamer and how he named his sons Manasseh or "to forget" and Ephraim, which means "twice fruitful." by doing so, he was acknowledging that God has made him forget his troubles and what evils he had experienced in life, he acknowledged that the Lord made him fruitful despite all that...maybe even BECAUSE of all that? He makes it look so easy, but it could not have been. I find myself thinking about us, and asking myself whether I was ready to forgive and forget, as Joseph had done. The forgiving part is easy, I did that long ago, almost as soon as I saw your face again in Paragon, probably. But the forgetting part is not so easy. Because to forget means to vanquish all fear and I am still fearful. But with God's help maybe I will be able to. Someday.